Friday, October 3, 2014


At 35 weeks I am really starting to scare the public with how pregnant I look. But imagine if they knew how pregnant I FEEL!

Lady in Chick-fil-A: Wow you're about to have your hands full.
Me: Yea but you should see how full my HEART IS.

Lady outside the library: Looks like you're carrying a girl!
Me: It's a boy.

BiLo Cashier: She [Evelyn] must have been really little when you got pregnant again.
Me: We had sex immediately.

Apartment Manager: When are you due?
Me: November 8th
Apartment Manager: WOW so two more months?!?! 
Me: I'm sorry?

Sister-in-law: WOW you're so big!
Me: Thank-you?


Thursday, August 7, 2014


I've been meaning to share this since May when it happened! 

*Shakity shakity celebratory wiggling*

We are still in the red every month but are trying very hard to be breaking even by next May! Here's where we were with March Debt.

There are some great things happening for us right now. Konrad is 27 weeks gestated. Evelyn (almost 11 months) is sleeping through the night. Our new apartment has two bedrooms, is less expensive per month, and is beautiful. Not as beautiful as The Stink though:

She obviously rules this household.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Baby Steps

Today, instead of sleeping during second nap time, I cleaned the kitchen, worked on my art, and folded the laundry. I am going to try to embrace the house and its work as one of my passions.

Guess who is ten months old and more beautiful every day?

Tuesday, June 10, 2014


Book to Read:

My Evelyn sitting out enjoying the rain. She is my dream baby.

Friday, April 4, 2014

Why are we called to bear children?

Last night I found myself struggling to answer the question of why God asks flawed, broken humans to be parents. I have been doubting my abilities to successfully raise multiple children. Ahhh first trimester baby blues how I missed you.

"He must know I'm already making a royal mess of it." I tell myself. "How does lying limp on the dirty floor of our apartment for hours at a time, qualify me to teach this baby plus another one about Catholicism, Truth, Love? We are barely making it through each day."

Off to the Catechism of the Catholic Church I go. To try to answer the question, "why are we called to bear children?"

"Children are the supreme gift of marriage and contribute greatly to the good of the parents themselves. God himself said: "It is not good that man should be alone," and "from the beginning [he] made them male and female"; wishing to associate them in a special way in his own creative work, God blessed man and woman with the words: "Be fruitful and multiply." -CCC 1652 

It appears that things were meant to go much smoother than they do. The problems in marriage and family life are not a result of Women are from Venus and Men are from Mars (this is what we have going for us!) but from a fallen, sinful nature.

There are two other points from that passage:
  • children contribute greatly to the good of the parents - because I was never going to become a saint the way I was cruising through life. How can I so easily forget about eternal life?
  • God wants us to participate in his own creative work - because he Loves us and this creative work is an ENORMOUS gift. Imagine if you were a incredible artist and you allowed the people you love to do whatever they wanted to your paintings because you wanted to give them a chance to experience the joy that you felt from it. This analogy falls short of course but it is an incredible love.

And then:
"Hence, true married love and the whole structure of family life which results from it, without diminishment of the other ends of marriage, are directed to disposing the spouses to cooperate valiantly with the love of the Creator and Savior, who through them will increase and enrich his family from day to day...the fundamental task of marriage and family is to be at the service of life." -CCC 1652-1653

I love the use of the word valiantly! Those dusty old men in charge of the Church know exactly what they're talking about. I have to be brave. Oftentimes it's the things that are the hardest that are the most worthwhile and beautiful.

Then I remembered a little wedding gift - Apostolic Exhortation of John Paul II, The Role of the Christian Family in the Modern World. Just turning to specific chapters I found a few passages of interest.

"Thus the fundamental task of the family is to serve life, to actualize in history the original blessing of the Creator - that of transmitting by procreation the divine image from person to person." (pg 46)
The divine image!

"While not making the other purposes of matrimony of less account, the true practice of conjugal love, and the whole meaning of the family life which results from it, have this aim: that the couple be ready with stout hearts to cooperate with the love of the Creator and the Savior, who through them will enlarge and enrich His own family day by day." (pg 46)

This is always my downfall: I am always determined to "have things together" or "to be perfect" and then to present myself to God as "the whole package". This isn't what He asks of us! Cooperation and working through us means trying our best and that being enough. He's going to work through me and achieve amazing things if I keep myself open to His graces. It doesn't mean a spotless apartment or a perfect attitude (I do need to be a little less miserable in sickness) but to keep turning to his mercy and to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Unless you're lying on the floor like me. In that case it means continuing to drag your body army style from one room to the next.

I'm grateful for a Church that has so much understanding of the human spirit and all of these questions that I have. And I'm grateful for my stinkerbee.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Books For Evelyn

This is a while off but I believe a love of reading is crucial for education and especially in homeschooling. I'm not sure if we will home school, will cross that bridge when we come to it. I would love Evelyn to discover these books. So many adventures! Just looking at their covers makes me want to go back and rediscover them all.

I have left out Twilight, Hunger Games, and a few others that I don't believe have the same quality as these. Hunger Games because it was scary to me when I read it at age 23. I HAVE included Harry Potter which might raise some eyebrows. Those books were one of the best memories I have from my childhood so I can't leave them out.

It seems that many current popular books for girls have shallow characters or questionable themes. I don't think little girls need to read about texting or divorce. That being said, looking at this list, there are quite a few misbehaved or rebellious heroines! Ah and who doesn't love a good orphan story? Why are kids so drawn to orphan stories?

I will try to add to this list for future reference.